This was incredibly validating to read; thank you so much for sharing. Spiritual bypassing is such an easy trap to fall into for the exact reason you said - it makes you feel like you're doing *something* to heal, but it's all just another bandaid. My true spiritual awakening began when I started to dig deeper, and treat the wounds from the inside out. It hurts like hell, but the more I do it, the more naturally I find myself actually following spiritual practices without *forcing* myself to. I meditate when it feels right. I sit out in nature just because I feel like it at the time. Sometimes it seems like the whole world has it all backwards.
Awakening is a shitstorm of every emotional state that requires all the things you’ve said to navigate it. I’m glad you’re keeping it real. Excellent piece that I’m certain will hit a few nerves among the spiritual gurupreneurs.
You nailed it—awakening really is a chaotic shitstorm of emotions and the world’s overflowing with garbage advice. It’s high time we put the boot in those gurupreneurs who exploit vulnerabilities. Cheers to cutting through the noise and getting back to what really matters!
Indeed. And I think a lot of our modern malaise is rooted in the near impossibility for most people to navigate overflow. Even *if* they had the knowledge, they often don't have the time. So, either they avoid it all, or they, unh trying to keep in-metaphor, dumpster dive at random.
And this isn't limited to finding good self-help advice or course. We're drowning in choice and information and it's brutalizing our psyches.
The delicacy of ego.. being egoless is my unhealthy ego trying its luck.
I find the deep ancient kabalistic writing and practices to be a guide to this state of ego. Humble but full, in awe with all there is, mission driven while still.
I like the way you put that—being “egoless” is just your unhealthy ego trying its luck. That’s about as paradoxical as it gets.
Ancient texts always have the most fascinating blueprints. Crazy how they are literally so far behind us and spiritually lightyears ahead. Really makes you wonder…
I can appreciate the depth of your journey and the challenges you’ve faced—it’s not all ecstasy, for sure, as a former resident of rock bottom.
It’s interesting, though, how even in the midst of grief and tough truths, there’s still a sense of wonder. Perhaps true growth lies not in seeking a singular ‘enlightenment’ but in the openness to every experience no matter how complex or difficult. Isn’t it fascinating how each moment, whether joyful or sorrowful, adds a new layer to our understanding of ourselves and the world?
Maybe it’s in embracing the ebb and flow of these emotions—without needing to label or define them—that we begin to tap into a deeper, more expansive version of spiritual awakening. What if the real journey is about staying curious, constantly exploring, and allowing the unfolding to shape us, rather than having all the answers? Curious of your thoughts.
It sounds like you’re in a deep place of reflection, and that’s powerful. Sometimes not having the answers opens up the possibility to explore better questions. Grief can strip us down, but it also leaves space for unexpected growth. As for human agency, maybe it’s less about having all the answers and more about how we engage with the world in small, meaningful ways. Perhaps the wonder is in the process of questioning itself, rather than in finding the perfect solution. What do you think of that?
This was incredibly validating to read; thank you so much for sharing. Spiritual bypassing is such an easy trap to fall into for the exact reason you said - it makes you feel like you're doing *something* to heal, but it's all just another bandaid. My true spiritual awakening began when I started to dig deeper, and treat the wounds from the inside out. It hurts like hell, but the more I do it, the more naturally I find myself actually following spiritual practices without *forcing* myself to. I meditate when it feels right. I sit out in nature just because I feel like it at the time. Sometimes it seems like the whole world has it all backwards.
Yes! Yes! Yes! I live for these stories. Thank you for sharing.
Awakening is a shitstorm of every emotional state that requires all the things you’ve said to navigate it. I’m glad you’re keeping it real. Excellent piece that I’m certain will hit a few nerves among the spiritual gurupreneurs.
You nailed it—awakening really is a chaotic shitstorm of emotions and the world’s overflowing with garbage advice. It’s high time we put the boot in those gurupreneurs who exploit vulnerabilities. Cheers to cutting through the noise and getting back to what really matters!
`the world’s overflowing with garbage advice.`
Indeed. And I think a lot of our modern malaise is rooted in the near impossibility for most people to navigate overflow. Even *if* they had the knowledge, they often don't have the time. So, either they avoid it all, or they, unh trying to keep in-metaphor, dumpster dive at random.
And this isn't limited to finding good self-help advice or course. We're drowning in choice and information and it's brutalizing our psyches.
Live life as if you are Winnie the Pooh ☯️
Follow that trail of honey 🍯
This title wins it all!
This is really so solid!
The delicacy of ego.. being egoless is my unhealthy ego trying its luck.
I find the deep ancient kabalistic writing and practices to be a guide to this state of ego. Humble but full, in awe with all there is, mission driven while still.
Thanks for writing.
I like the way you put that—being “egoless” is just your unhealthy ego trying its luck. That’s about as paradoxical as it gets.
Ancient texts always have the most fascinating blueprints. Crazy how they are literally so far behind us and spiritually lightyears ahead. Really makes you wonder…
Yes yes yes !!!
Your posts really never disappoint
Thank you. We are the same kind of weird.
I can appreciate the depth of your journey and the challenges you’ve faced—it’s not all ecstasy, for sure, as a former resident of rock bottom.
It’s interesting, though, how even in the midst of grief and tough truths, there’s still a sense of wonder. Perhaps true growth lies not in seeking a singular ‘enlightenment’ but in the openness to every experience no matter how complex or difficult. Isn’t it fascinating how each moment, whether joyful or sorrowful, adds a new layer to our understanding of ourselves and the world?
Maybe it’s in embracing the ebb and flow of these emotions—without needing to label or define them—that we begin to tap into a deeper, more expansive version of spiritual awakening. What if the real journey is about staying curious, constantly exploring, and allowing the unfolding to shape us, rather than having all the answers? Curious of your thoughts.
It sounds like you’re in a deep place of reflection, and that’s powerful. Sometimes not having the answers opens up the possibility to explore better questions. Grief can strip us down, but it also leaves space for unexpected growth. As for human agency, maybe it’s less about having all the answers and more about how we engage with the world in small, meaningful ways. Perhaps the wonder is in the process of questioning itself, rather than in finding the perfect solution. What do you think of that?